The Twelve Step programmes have several anagrams for GOD, including Good Orderly Discipline and Gift of Desperation. What I am seeing lately is many people being offered their greatest Christmas gift of all, well ahead of time - the Gift of Desperation.
If you are struggling to commit to your right vibration, you will be suffering. That struggle will manifest as anxiety, confusion, depression, insomnia, active addiction, loneliness etc. It is your soul trying to wake you up! I speak from experience because that was me 32 years ago before I got sober.
Remember you made your choice to ascend before you incarnated into this lifetime. Therefore your current suffering is a direct result of ignoring the deepest desire of your soul to ascend with Gaia. It's not too late - hop on board, we would love to have you join us.
Love, Light, Laughter and Joy, fellow Ground Crew members...
The best is in the Now.